The Silver Lining of Covid-19
Information is the issue I see affecting our mindsets right now.
Mainly a lack of it.
That is what is often so triggering. The not knowing what is happening in the next few weeks or months.
I am a supremely anxious person. I like having a vague plan of where things are going and what will be happening so I can mentally prepare for it. This not knowing and not being able to research my way through information to figure out a plan on my own makes me feel so out of control.
The first few days of things slowing and entering into lockdown were a mess. I felt claustrophobic, like I lived in a box ant the panic started.
Was I going to be able to get food and toilet roll? (I didn’t panic buy)
Was my other half going to have to go away to work through this and I’d be alone?
Would I be able to leave the house on my own?
At the end of this would all the hard work I have put into my mindset and staying out of the dangerously anxious and depressed state I had been in be wasted?
What was going to happen to family members, especially those living abroad?
Would I see them again?
My brain is a fun place.
Then I realised that for most of these things I was never going to be able to answer or stop any negatives from happening. The engineer in me hates this. A lot.
I didn’t come to this conclusion alone. There were many phone calls and texts and emails trying to remind me that deep down I did know this and needed to accept it. Many a tear was shed and naps had during this period.
For now, I can only work on what I can do and that is to use this time in the best way possible. That includes spending time to do absolutely NOTHING. Something I have needed to do for a while.
When I felt up to being productive again I took baby steps.
I began by really analysing what information I consumed.
Do I need to be consuming it?
Is the information trustworthy?
Am I learning anything from this?
Is it improving my mindset?
If it the answer was no, I muted or removed it. News started being limited to once a day. I turned my phone on silent. I asked friends to stop sending me certain types of info as I just could not process it anymore.
I started trying to focus on the positives and all the things I have wanted to do but been unable to because of my hectic life.
I could get a regular sleep pattern going. Fall asleep and wake up at regular times with the right amount of sleep.
I could fit exercise into my day, even just a light walk.
I can meditate often.
I can have a slow start to my morning and it not come with any consequences.
I can focus on providing more for you all through Engineer Your Mind.
I can make time to have long calls with people regularly.
I have time to read.
I can catch up on films.
I can start yoga without having to try an find a studio I can get to easily after work and still get home at a reasonable time.
I have time to regularly practice positive mindset techniques.
I have time to cook healthy meals
In summary, I have time to create good habits. I have craved this for so long.
I feel rested, my body feels better and my mindset is more consistent that it has been in a while. I still worry a lot about what will happen at the end of all this, how I will transition out.
Luckily, I have lots of time to consider it and figure out a plan for me.